It was over 36 years ago now when my then husband and I had a disagreement, he asked me to leave…so I packed up our girls ages 4 and 18 months and left.
I was devasted, scared, ashamed, embarrassed, angry and relived all at once. The emotions ran over me like a freight train.
Since that time many twists and turns have happened. The ups and downs of life, the accomplishment and the setbacks. But the one thing I am sure of is, I made the right choice.
Recently at the wedding of my youngest daughter I had obligatory gathering which included my ex-husband. Cordial is the word that comes to mind. Oh, how far I have come. I am proud of the woman, mother and grandmother that I have become.
That young woman who married a man over 40 years ago blossomed through a choice she made. It wasn’t always easy and surely wasn’t always fun, but the road taken proved to be the best path for me. I am forever grateful. Divorce was not in vogue when this all happened. I had no college degree (at that time), had not yet figured out how I would support myself or my girls or even who I might become. But for me anything was better than the verbal and emotional abuse I sustained. Although, there were no bruises or my body, no physical signs of pain, the abuse ran deep and was devastating.
But there was something inside me that said, “life didn’t have to be this way.” That I had a choice and although the outcome was unknown, the risk was worth it. It turned out that the cost was of epic proportion, not in dollars but in heart break and yet the choice; was still the right one.
I had to learn to forgive myself for not having the where with all or stamina to stay and take the abuse for the sake of the family. As the outcome was life altering.
It took years, no, decades to forgive myself.
Today, at the wedding of my youngest daughter, I had the opportunity to revisit those feelings. I am proud and worthy of the life I have built.
The choice was mine, just as it is yours and every other day of your life. And although the choices you have maybe different from mine those 40 years ago, the fact is, you still have a choice. No matter how big or small.
What are you intending for your life, even if only for today? Are you ready to commit to you and your dreams? What are the steps, the tiny steps you can take to move you forward? The choice is yours.
Cheers to a fabulous you!
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I'd be over thoughts like this but nope. There they were staring at me in the face. I wanted to keep sharing but I looked at this event as a lesson I needed to learn. What kept running through my thoughts was, "do what you love and forget the rest." Have you heard that before?
I had gotten so wrapped up in the social media thing that I wasn't loving what I was doing anymore. I had set up rigid deadlines for my on-line presence and had to learn new apps and programs to keep up. It was time consuming and totally inteferred with what I love to do. So, here I was faced with a dilema, so I became quiet to be able to hear what was about to bubble up.
On the bright side I found that it was time for a change anyway. Just like getting a new hairdo, I was ready for a new look and feel. But where do you start when you want a new you? Soul searching baby...lots of soul searching. And let me tell you, sometimes that ain't pretty. It was almost more frustrating to figure out this new path and get excited about the unfoldling, than it was to just scratch the whole idea. I started and stopped, and started and stopped. Until, the path became clear.
Finding a clear path that creates thoughts of abundance instead of scarcity takes time. It takes time to quiet the mind and listen to that inner guidance that always has your best interest at heart. Then as I listened, "Braving Midlife" came about as many of you (my followers) had been referring to me as "brave." That was scarey. I didn't see myself as brave and yet as I looked back through the years of journals that I kept, the clients I served, the people I placed myself in front of, I realized that I am all of that and more. I am excited about what lies ahead, no matter my age. I am doing more of the work that I love than ever before, all while living in a foreign country. And all I had to do was let go and listen.
So as I begin to pull together, define and refine what midlife means to me, I will share with you my experiences, the lessons, and the people that I meet along with way, in hopes that this will inspire you to step forward into the beautiful human being that you are and share that person with the world.
As time goes on, I hope you will have an opportunity to join me on my travels, so be sure to sign up for my newsletter. And as my programs begin to move to an on-line platform I will be sure to keep you informed. For those of you that have an inkling of becoming a midlife entrepreneur I have so much in store for you. My life is full from me doing what I love and I wish that for you as well.
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Cheers to a beautiful life,
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I have a beautiful life that I love to share! I hope you find some inspiring thoughts to get you moving, some new places that you would like to visit, some new ways of viewing the world.